Saturday, January 12, 2008

Long Time No Write

Wow. I didn't realize that I haven't posted here in forever.... A lot has been happening in my life over the past several months and truthfully I just haven't had the energy or the wherewithal to write anything, much less a blog. But a friend of mine pointed out my lack of posts over here and so I decided to at least drop in and make an appearance...

In June my husband was diagnosed with heart disease. He had two artieries in his heart 100% blocked and one was 80%. Needless to say he was put into the hospital for immediate surgery and my life was turned upside down. I spent seven days in the hospital with him, four of them in intensive care. I couldn't work, I couldn't eat, I barely slept. I had to be the rock for everyone--my kids, his family, my family--there was no crying allowed. He was a basket-case--he is deathly afraid of doctors and hospitals so this was a very traumatice experience for him. For him to even be able to deal with any of it I needed to be with him 24/7. And I was.

His mother was full of drama herself--reminded me of someone caught in a whirlpool, spinning around with her arms over her head and bemoaning the fact that he was ill, he might die, whatever. (not literally--she would never actually do that.) I have no time for drama, thank you very much. I listened to the doctors, made the decisions that needed to be made, and got down to what needed to be done. Practical, yes. Drama queen? Not so much.

But after it was all said and done and he was well on the road to recovery we had another setback. An Echo he had done came back with irregularities so they wanted him to do another stress test, which he had failed miserably previous to this and was what had started the whole surgery thing in the first place.

This did shake me up, I have to admit. Thank God my youngest daughter had met this boy and was dating him, because he has become the son of my heart and my rock through out this ordeal. Strong Christian, he is the son I wish I had been lucky enough to have had myself. He has helped the girls deal with all of this stuff with their dad, and has been their for my husband also. I couldn't deal with a second round of stress and need from all of them by myself this time and it was wonderful to be able to hand some of the lesser stuff off to him. What a blessing...

So now things are back on an even keel. He passed the test with flying colors and is doing well. The family is starting to heal also, though my youngest has criticized me for what what she saw as a lack of caring when I wouldn't cry in front of her. She doesn't understand that if I started to cry I would just crack wide open and never stop....

As for writing--well, I got three great stories in various forms of being. One is pretty solid and I have quite a bit written on it. One needs to have some more research done before I can really solidify it and put it on hard drive. The last one is so awesome--I just really love it and it is in note-form only but it is GREAT and will be the best of them all.