Friday, May 01, 2009

Thus begins a new chapter...

My oldest daughter passed her driver's test this morning. She had a lot riding on it, to say the least! Tonight is her Senior Prom, and I told her if she passed her test she could drive herself there in whichever of our cars she wanted--including her dad's 'Vette! She decided to pass on the Corvette, since she is only 5' tall and she can't see out of it very well! Plus, since she will be wearing a long dress tonight, she decided she wants to drive my Tahoe because it sits up high and her dress won't drag when she gets in and out of it. A good choice, actually, since it is big and burly and she can see out of it and it has airbags all over in case something happens...

Can you tell I am a little--apprehensive, I guess you would call it--about my baby driving alone, at night, on Prom night? But I have to let her go--she will be 18 in a few months and she has earned her freedom. I just worry about the other idiots on the road with her and I just want her to be safe...

It is a good thing, truly it is, but along with my happiness for her there is some sadness for me.
Getting her license is just one more step she is taking away from me, of needing me, and I am not sure I am ready for that yet. It seems like just yesterday I was helping her take her first steps, or teaching her to ride her bike. Now here she is, a month away from graduating high school, her license hot off the presses, and I am the one who is trying to hold back a little, to slow things down. For me. She is ready--I know she is going to be fabulous--but I don't think I am!

I was so nervous when the examiner from the DMV came out to the car and told me I could go inside now! I was in tears as she drove away because I knew how much this meant to her and I really wanted her to pass. When they came back about 15 minutes later my heart stopped--she had said the test would take like 45 minutes so I thought she must have failed! I walked around the corner and she got out of the car with a big grin and said "Well, I guess we can go to Huckleberries'" and I knew she had passed (I had told her we would go out to breakfast if she passed)!! And then I cried again! LOL!

So now we move on to a new chapter in our lives. The one where I let go and let her discover who she is and who she wants to be. I'm not really sure how this chapter will end--haven't scripted it out yet, because now I am writing it with someone else and she is going to have a lot of input from now on. Should be interesting. Stick around and see where we go.. It could be A Wild Ride! (*wink* to The Cherries!)